Goals/Priorities/Purpose and Indifference/Apathy

I find myself constantly torn between having a unique sense of purpose that drives me to accomplish things and utter indifference to everything.

Nothing pumps you up like reading some inspirational stuff about people starting businesses, writing books, etc. You think "I can have that too!". But then apathy creeps up on you and questions the meaning of any of "that". How is having all of that any better than having nothing? Does it really make your life more fulfilling? Or is it just the illusion that it is more fulfilling.

Even if 10 or 100 million people think you are "accomplished" or have done "a good job" does that really mean anything? I think it is just a more glorious illusion, but an illusion all the same.

The same can be said of setting goals and priorities in your life. But I guess if you stay convicted about those goals you won't falter in your beliefs.

So instead of ending on a negative note, let me say that if you find that doing something makes you happy, pursue that above all else.

Example: Working a 9-5 Job and really want to paint all day? Quit now! Screw the consequences! If painting is your priority, not paying your bills, then quit and move around. You will improve at your "craft" (whatever that is) if you spend more time doing it (and critiquing it).